I remember the exact moment I decided I wasn’t going to come back to LA. It was a snow-covered day in the middle of real winter, I didn’t have Monstrosity yet as my rental vehicle, and I was driving down Watson blvd on my way to Traditions, the hotel I was staying at because the apartment I wanted wasn’t ready yet (excellent hotel, btw, I highly recommend). As I was looking at the wonder of snow around me a sudden thought came to me:
Yup. I’m not coming back home.
I hadn’t even made friends yet at that point, hadn’t gone to any of the CrossFit gyms around because I was sick but somehow I just knew. Of course, in the following months there were moments of panic and uncertainty since I have the type of personality where I feel the need to categorize everything in neat little boxes, but in that moment there was no doubt. Now I’ve just gotten this feeling that something else is about to change, something drastic, in a good way.
No seriously! It’s a gut feel!
😀 😀 I’m laughing at myself because the logical part of my brain is like, “Homegirl, get real.” I dunno, maybe I’m right, maybe I’m just in fantasyland at this particular moment. I guess we’ll find out. The important thing though? Unlike previous times where I’m analyzing, trying to figure out what and why I’m feeling this way, right now I just don’t care. Bring it on, life! I think I’m finally ready.
Sometimes, you gotta just let it go!