They sent me to Binghamton

I've always wanted to be on the east coast, and the universe responded…by sending me to Binghamton, NY. Oh you've never heard of it? Neither had I, but I do so love adventures and that's how I choose to view this. Let the adventures begin!

I Wish I Had Given Up Sooner

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I never thought I’d say that but it’s true. I get really pig-headed some(most)times and I put it in my head that I. Must. FINISH IT.

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Most of the time it’s a good trait to have but there are times when the Present Me wants to slap the Past Me and say, “It’s not worth it, dammit!!” Because regardless of whether or not I complete the task or resolve the issue, when the amount of time and effort I put in exceeds the value of success, I end up feeling like crap. I feel really antsy, stressed out, and angry like no other.

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And when I don’t even end up finishing it or getting what I want anyway? OH. Much worse. Because then it’s like, wow, I might as well have just flushed my time down the toilet for all the good it did me.

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And then it makes me want to cry.

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So what fantastic thing did I do this time where I should’ve given up sooner? It isn’t a relationship issue this time, thankfully, although I’ve managed to waste my own time a few times in the past. No, this time it has to do with school. How could that possibly be a bad thing then, spending all that time for school? Well, I spent about 15 hours on my final lab for this class only to still not have it working like it’s supposed to. Not to say I should’ve spent 0 hours on it, but I should’ve stopped by 10 hours. Why? Because I did all of that for a prerequisite class (undergraduate course) that will not even count towards my master’s degree! I only needed it so I can have a specific specialty for my master’s. It won’t even count towards my GPA! So, dammit, why did I do that?? Now I will have to spend extra hours to get my work done for my job. Le sigh.

I think in the future I need to consult my time vs. worth graph. I need to determine, once I hit an issue or some sort of road block, how much achieving this goal is worth it to me. Based on the worth, then I can figure out how much time I should put in or if I’ve already put in enough time.

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Ugh. One day I’ll learn. I hope.

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Author: lorz46

When I first started this blog, life had just thrown me a curveball by sending me to the middle of nowhere in upstate New York right smack in the middle of winter from my hometown in sunny, southern California. I had no idea what to expect, how long I would stay, or even where my life was heading. All I knew was that there were a great many adventures to be had after they sent me to Binghamton.

One thought on “I Wish I Had Given Up Sooner

  1. That’s some crazy fatality, Raiden taking out the Fresh Prince of Bel Aire by running away with his upper body like some rag doll.

    But, yea, that sucks. I’ve been both places/ways. I’ve been so determined to finish that people are banging down the door to make me stop (as if I was doing something lewd with myself…). And, I’ve been the finisher who looks forward to the “applause” from others…that never comes.

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